Days Go By...

I'm feeling a bit more upbeat the past few days. Husband help out in the house this weekend and things are feeling alittle more organized. And even with the Declan/TV thing has not brought me down. Here are a few funnies I have had with the kids the past week:


Scene I:
Maggie and I were watching the news, the weather was on, it was snowing in Minnesota.

Maggie: Mommy, I want a little Soda

Me: What do you mean?

Maggie: A Little Soda, Like they said on TV, A Mini Soda.

Me: hahahaha- still laughing:)


Scene II:
I was tucking Declan into bed tonight.

Declan: Ma, do you know where my wallet is?

Me: I will look. Why?

Declan: I need it.

Me: Why?

Declan: I need it so I can pay the consequences.

The News...

As The Black Sheep left everyone hanging last night, I will share the news. Queenie herself rolled over for the first time yesterday!The Black Sheep missed it as she was at work:( I then reminded her of Declan's first steps(that I waited 14 months for) That he decided to take during the first and only 24hours I spent away from him. I was giving Birth to Killi. That's okay though because The Black Sheep was there to see that:)


Here's the other thing about TBS, she has always felt that our parents favored me over her(which is not true) but she believed it. What is true though is that everyone else always liked her more than me, so maybe the truth is that my parents were just be a little nicer to me at home so I wouldn't feel so bad out in public. Someday, I really hope that someone will like me better than her:) Here are a few examples:
A- everyone mistakes me for her; never her for me
B- at my grandmother's funeral, she chatted with all her friends; they thought I was the "help"
Well, whatever the reason she's nicer (or people think so:) I wish that I wasn't always trying to be loved like she is by everyone.

A Tough Job...

Husband and I have been faced with some of our toughest parenting issues to date. And while the issues we are dealing with are not nearly as great as what others face daily, they have been tough for us. Declan, our wonderful son, has disappointed us. We have been having some TV issues(him watching what we have said no to) and they are not getting better. Yesterday, He lost his TV for the night and the Wii until Friday. Today, we agreed to give Declan a second chance with the TV and he disregarded what we said and put on the channel anyway. When I went in to check on him it was on, I could not believe it. I actually felt sick. Felt like someone punched me in the stomach, the disappointment was unreal. It was an interesting situation. I was not angry, I was disappointed. What had I done wrong as a parent to make him lie and sneak like that? And how do I make him understand that HE now has to deal with the consequences of his actions? I really wish I had a handbook right about now. One with all the right answers already circled.

Weekend Work...

We had a productive weekend. Got some projects off the list and the house is looking better. I am tired, grouchy and have some serious PMS, so stand clear:) I hope this week is better than last. I have lots more to do and a positive attitude would sure help(I will look for one:)!

Ben is finally on board with the spoiled kid thing so we can get the kids back in shape. I am on board with the spoiled husband thing(he is going to do more, stop laughing:) Now if we could just spoil the mom we'd be in good shape:) Honestly, I never imagined it would be so difficult to stop giving to and doing for my children. The idea that Ben and I would have the ability to give them all they ask for was not I thought our biggest problem as parents was going to be, but it has become that. I know I have talked about it before, but we are still struggling with it. I think we need to go back to the days of Nancy Reagan and just say NO! We are trying.

HELP!!!

OMG- I think I might just loose my mind. I am not sure what happened, but since the week before we left for Florida I have been in a funk. I am completely indifferent towards everything and everyone. Nothing makes me happy, lots makes me unhappy. I am a total stress case about everything! I am in such a downward spiral that I cannot see the opening to get out. Spring is usually such a good time of year for me; what is wrong this year! I should be happy. I am almost finished with school, the kids are almost out for summer vacation, our trips are planned, things are good; only they are not:(

I had gotten myself into a very nice place not to long ago. A place where I was able to see how good my life is. See how much more fortunate than others I am. I am health, have a husband that loves me, three health and happy kids, so why do I feel so blue? Why am I having such a tough time seeing the good and enjoying the time I have with the people I have chosen to share it with. I have good people in my life right now, friend and family to spend time with and enjoy, how have I lost sight of that? Better question is how to I get it back?

I need to find a way to reconnect with myself and my family and friends. If anyone has suggestions, I am open to hearing them:)

Time Out!

I've had a few down days. Lots going on, getting back in the swing of things, baby that wants to reattach herself, house that is very disorganized, it is all making me crazy. All of this is mixed with a bit of PMS, so I am grouchy. I am feeling a bit overwhelmed. I need a break. A few minutes to myself, a shower, a tv show; right now I would take anything. I may hit my breaking point before the weekends through. I guess I will wait and see:)

Job Done!

I went to the Food Store today. This is my least favorite job in the entire world. I find it to be absolute torture, yes torture! For the two days leading up to the outing I have panic attacks and tension headaches. I know now that it is worse because I have made it such a huge deal in my mind, but I am not sure how to fix it now. Anyhow, it is done now. Done for at least 6weeks. That makes me happy. My snack cabinet is full, my pantry is clean and full, frig too and both(yes both) of my freezers are full!!! I am very excited about the amount of food we have in the house right now. The trip however took me from 9 O'clock(walked into WalMart) until 1 O'clock when everything was put away! Crazy! But DONE!!!!