AS THE BAND BEGAN TO PLAY OUT OF TUNE...

I really need to vent. Today, Ben and I had another meeting with the Child Find people about Killi. The outcome, they will come and evaluate her at school in the next few weeks. What this will do I'm not sure. She has been evaluated time and time again and nothing has come of it. Every time THEY evaluate her, she is fine or borderline or not behind enough to qualify for services; yet every time she is evaluated privately, a determination has been made that she has developmental delays. How can this be? I don't want to believe that they don't want what is best for her and are just blowing us off, but that is how it feels. I am so angry. I am so sad. I am so frustrated. I don't know where to turn next. We have been referred to The Kluge Center at the University of Virginia, and have gotten an appointment there in March. We are happy to have the appointment, but we now need to change our health insurance because none of the specialists we've been referred to take the insurance we have now. So, this means an additional $55 a pay period for health insurance, plus deductibles, plus God knows what else. I will do whatever I need to to help her, but I am really getting fed up with the system, Our we doing early intervention or not?

Next, I'd like to move on to the issue of Maggie being sick. I am not sure what is wrong with her but she has a fever and looks like she has pink eye. She also has a cough. Along with this, if it is possible, she has wanted me to hold her more today than others. I did not think that was possible as I feel all I do is hold/carry her around. I am hoping this plague skips over me as I am only a week out of a cold, shingles and an ear infection. I am sure I will not be that lucky, but I can hope, right?

To top the day, Declan announced at dinner tonight that he was not going to eat tonight until we lit our menorah. We our not Jewish, so I do not have one handy. He learned about Hanukkah at school today, and while I think that is great and I am very happy to have a menorah, pitching a fit at dinner tonight, was not what I needed. So, tomorrow I will search out a menorah for our house and refresh my knowledge of Hanukkah for dinner tomorrow.

Now I am tired as I am suffering a bout of insomnia, and have lots to do, 4 papers, finish Christmas cards, and mail out 50 invitations out for Megan's baby shower. I better get moving. I know tomorrow will be better:)