CAN'T SHAKE THIS FEELING!

For the past few weeks I have been feeling blue. This is not new for me, I have been depressed before, but this is different. I don't know what it is.

I have been sick for no less than six weeks with a sinus infection. Which has made my rheumatoid arthritis flare up. I have also had a toothache for a week. I am getting a root canal tomorrow and I hope that will help. Otherwise I don't know what I will do. I am just about all cried out. My body hurts all the time. I can't take it anymore. I need to feel better.

I have not been a good mom or wife. I have no patients, I need to snap out of it. And soon!

WHAT AM I DOING WRONG?

The day started out at 6:20am. I get up to run my husband down to the bus stop. I think, this isn't too bad, I can use this time to workout and weed before the kids get up. (You know they were going to sleep in because they went to bed late, right?) Of course not, up at 6:55. I figured I'd go out and weed anyway. I put the dog in his crate so the girls could come in and out with n0 worry of setting the dog free. I Handed them juice and breakfast and off I went. It was almost peaceful.



AND THEN, out the front door comes a huge black dog and two screaming girls!!!!!!!!! That's is correct. They not only let him out of his crate, but out the front door too. And no, Gus, our 120lb dog, does not come when called. So, off he went through the neighborhood. With that I grabbed th the girls, threw them in their bedroom and went off to look for the dog. The good news is he wasn't far, two doors down, and came with the sign of a treat. We are all home and safe again.

But what about the girls? Everyday it is something. Yesterday the coloring today the dog, I need to know if there is ever a break. What can I do to get them to behave?

THE CAR

My husband and I argue often about the state of "the family car". I will admit that it is usually not clean, however I have three children that range in age from 5 to 2 1/2, so I can not always carry the trash out with me when I exit the car. Anyway, today I was going to try and clean out the car before my husband got into it, (we were away last week ,road trip, so the car was pretty bad). I however was not prepared for what I found. My 4 1/2 year old, yes, 4 1/2, had colored with crayon, all over the backseat of my car. She had coloring books and paper, but NO, she colored all over the seats! I was less than happy.

What I want to know is WHY!!!!! What was she thinking?

A BETTER DAY, SORT OF!

The sun finally came out today!!!! We've been here since Tuesday and this was the first sight of it. We made it to the beach for about 2 hours, where it was hot and the water was very rough and cold. The kids got knocked down a few times by the waves and I had to help them up, so I was cold and sandy, but they had fun.

WEATHER AND VACATION!

We are on a mini vacation at the Jersey shore. It is 4th of July week. It is rainy and cold!

The question I ask is, "Why is it never nice for Memorial Day, the 4th of July, and Labor Day, when I am at the beach?"

Or course at home where there were supposed to be storms the fireworks went off w/o a hitch. Here a slight chance of showers, and RAIN, and lots of it!

Three more days here. Hopefully tomorrow will bring some sun and beach time!

MOTHERHOOD

Five and a half years ago, when I became a mother for the first time, I never could have imagined how much I could love another human being. And sometimes I still forget, until todays like today. When I am so tired, and have a raging fever, and still a cute little smile still melts my heart; as bad as I felt all day, when the kids came in while I was folding clothes, and wanted to play, I had to stop and play. That was the best 20 minutes I had all day.


Thank you babies!!!! I Love You!

GOOD MANNERS?

If someone calls and involves you in the drama of their life, is it rude for them not to keep you updated on the situation?


I think it is, and so now I am no longer going to involve myself in the drama.